Saturday, July 31, 2010

Some subjects make the heart grow fonder.

I never thought, in a million years, I would actually find a guy who fit the description of "everything I've wanted"; nor did I think the same guy would tell me 4 months later that he was going to reenlist to the National Guard. He was in the Navy for 4 years prior to us meeting so military is nothing new to him; but it is to me. I know NOTHING about it... I don't know what to expect. My boyfriend is trying very hard to paint this pretty picture of what it all is going to be like (bless his heart), but I have this eery feeling it wont be anything like that. I also have a feeling it wont be just a 3 year thing. If I've learned anything about him it's that, protecting the people he loves is something he is passionate about. I have a feeling that military is going to be something that's part of his life for a long time. Which is fine, I'm just so overwhelmed with it all. I have bought books already that are supposed to "help" with the whole process but most importantly... the BIG D (deployment) but honestly, they just gave me more anxiety. Loving someone in the military is nothing anyone can relate to unless you've done it. Knowing that this person a) has to be away from you for extended periods of time and b) is in harms way sits terribly in the heart of those who love them. It makes you look at life in a different way, you no longer get upset about the unimportant things because you know that what is important is to love and cherish the people around you and the time you have with them. Luckily my family is supportive because NONE of my friends understand...they all keep asking me why I am willing to "put up with this". Funny thing is, I'm the one in the situation and I never once looked at it as "putting up with". It's just a new phase in my life...maybe even something positive. I'll have to learn to rely more on the power of prayer, my family and it seems I may even make some new friends out of the deal. We'll make it, there is no doubt in my mind about's just going to be a LONG journey, so buckle up and enjoy the ride. :)

NG Girlfriend,


  1. "I can do everything through him who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13 (NIV)
    I looked to God's Word for comfort. I came across some verses that seeped into the little cracks in my heart that so needed to be filled with something sweet of God. Those verses were Deuteronomy 11:8-9, "Therefore, be careful to obey every command I am giving you today, so you may have strength to go in and take over the land you are about to enter. If you obey, you will enjoy a long life in the land the Lord swore to give your ancestors and to you, their descendants..." (NLT).
    This daily obedience is where we find emotional strength to walk in His peace when we face doubts and fears; strength to walk in His joy when we cannot find any reason to be joyful; strength to stand firm in our faith when things seem hopeless; and strength to be strong when the painful things of life take their toll.
    Whether we need strength to comfort a loved one who is hurting or strength to overcome an adversity of our own, a life focused on obedience to God taps into the strength we need to carry on.

    Each time we get out of bed we have a choice to make - where will our strength come from to face the day ahead? Will we rely on ourselves or will we rely on God?

    Even if our physical weakness is a reality, we can be spiritually strong by keeping our hearts focused on the only true source of unending strength.
    Dear Lord, please hold Nicole and Drew up today. Give them the strength. Help them to lean on You. When tired and weak and in need Your strength today to face these hard situations and the pain in their hearts. Draw them closer to You in the midst of this. In Jesus' Name, Amen.

  2. Hi Nicole,

    I found your link on facebook. I've been an Army girlfriend for two years now. It comes with ups and downs but you will learn to deal with everything. It won't be easy, but it will make you that much stronger! If you need a friend, i'm here! :)