Saturday, July 31, 2010
Some subjects make the heart grow fonder.
I never thought, in a million years, I would actually find a guy who fit the description of "everything I've wanted"; nor did I think the same guy would tell me 4 months later that he was going to reenlist to the National Guard. He was in the Navy for 4 years prior to us meeting so military is nothing new to him; but it is to me. I know NOTHING about it... I don't know what to expect. My boyfriend is trying very hard to paint this pretty picture of what it all is going to be like (bless his heart), but I have this eery feeling it wont be anything like that. I also have a feeling it wont be just a 3 year thing. If I've learned anything about him it's that, protecting the people he loves is something he is passionate about. I have a feeling that military is going to be something that's part of his life for a long time. Which is fine, I'm just so overwhelmed with it all. I have bought books already that are supposed to "help" with the whole process but most importantly... the BIG D (deployment) but honestly, they just gave me more anxiety. Loving someone in the military is nothing anyone can relate to unless you've done it. Knowing that this person a) has to be away from you for extended periods of time and b) is in harms way sits terribly in the heart of those who love them. It makes you look at life in a different way, you no longer get upset about the unimportant things because you know that what is important is to love and cherish the people around you and the time you have with them. Luckily my family is supportive because NONE of my friends understand...they all keep asking me why I am willing to "put up with this". Funny thing is, I'm the one in the situation and I never once looked at it as "putting up with". It's just a new phase in my life...maybe even something positive. I'll have to learn to rely more on the power of prayer, my family and it seems I may even make some new friends out of the deal. We'll make it, there is no doubt in my mind about that...it's just going to be a LONG journey, so buckle up and enjoy the ride. :)